It’s been crazy this week- full day for 5 days, and an additional class on the sixth. It’s not that there’s no “time”, but I miss the ‘day’ part of the day. I come home at 5 if I leave college immediately after class, and by the time I look here and there, its dark. I don’t exactly have a problem with the dark, but I miss sitting at my table looking at the fields. I call it my ‘high seat’. Sitting there makes me forget about the ‘deadlines’. Sitting there makes me want to explore at leisure. Chill. Make a study model. Paint. Read. But of course, soon it’s going to be dark. I miss the holidays.

I think the people of my class (or at least a majority of them) have finally discovered the computer. Graphic skills. Photoshop. Jpeg. Images. Cad to revit. 3d-max to rhino. Nice. Ive been opened to the world of erasable lines too. It’s fun. And easy. But I still cannot think on the computer. Not that anybody is asking me to, I can always sketch. In the head, cad seems easier. I’m afraid of being so dependent on something.

How is a design process initiated? What are we expected to do or start with? The design faculty we have been dealing with for the past semesters has had strong yet varied ideas of a design ‘start’. Not even once have we agreed with them. No, I think once, just once. When prashanth sir was our lecturer. That design interaction and learing, I think, has been the most effective and exciting way of the beginning, progress, and completion of a design problem. What is the aim of a first desk review? To put forward the general wanderings of the mind with respect to an aspect of the problem, or is it the fundamental laying down of logistics, and starting with arriving at a site in a complex? Are we expected to come up with a ‘concept’ three days after the program was given? A concept is an idea; it has to strike. Maybe it’s foolish to just wait for an idea to strike. But then what’s the point of a desk review of a project, which provides general information? I think I can go on and on. Wht’s the point? I have to have something on paper to show them for the next design class. It’s the same story. Every semester. Is this the way to learn architecture? Or is it the way to learn architecture?

It is inevitable. It is progress. Watch monalisa smile, and you’ll know what I’m talking about. The loud cry of ‘culture’, ‘society’ and stuff that we keep defending India with, is about to vanish. The substance is about to be lost, and we must accept it. Why is every girl in our country married before 25 years of age? Society. Culture. That’s what we say. It’s changing. It is freedom. It’s funny, the way its meaning changes with progress. I think the American society looks at us like we are far behind, under developed..we look at them as they are too different. They are not different; they are forward. We’re on our way there. We must accept that. Multiple marriages, self centered lives. We have been living our lives for others all these years- parents live to give birth to their kids, and the kids live to continue that. The woman lives for the upbringing of her children, and the father lives to feed them. The children grow up to fulfill their duties- continue their father’s life. Suddenly when one such kid stands up and says I want to be an engineer and not a farmer, he’s a traitor. He used to be. It’s beginning to be accepted these days- the children do what they want to do, u cannot decide for them. Parents are left where they are because the kid starts living not for them, but for himself. Tomorrow, the Indian woman is going to live for herself. It is inevitable. Is it freedom? Is it progress?

I wonder if I should create a blog. Im curious to see if people are curious enough to read my blog as it is today- a jumble of thoughts. Maybe I’ll be one more blog for people to pass by till they click on ‘next blog’. I dunno.