I was crossing a signal on foot yesterday, and I passed by a lady with a much distorted face. What came to my mind immediately was “oh, so sad...” WHY? It doesn’t matter how you look, right? How important is it for Tiger Woods to have better eyebrows? Would it make any difference to him at all if his face was distorted?? Amilie Mauresmuo (dunno the spelling)-My mom keeps groaning every time she watches her play- she claims the tennis player looks man-like. WHO CARES? SHE’S PLAYING THE WIMBLEDON FINAL. Can you do that? Can you even dream of getting there? Stephen Hawking. Should I say more? It does not matter how you look to become who you want to be or what you want to do in life. We're all living in the grays though, aren't we?

Asking for money can be so depressing and emotionally demanding. Even when you deserve it. Why is the whole world trying to negotiate? Why does everything run on money?

People are so different from one another. It amuses me. Each person has a different understanding of everything. How can everyone possibly be so different?? For example, I escorted various people to my site, and they all loved it, but for fundamentally different reasons. My mom loves the openness, my dad loves the hollow clay block as it is so different from all other building materials, my friend pooja loves it because there are angular lines in the plan. I am still to accompany many others. It will be amusing to discover all the reasons- and also the criticism.

I was remembering my second pu days yesterday. They were soo much fun. I don’t remember studying at all. I remember all the background things- writing records in class, taking part in inter-college events and winning, making and writing in slam books, entering late in class, eating ‘bajji’ at 8 in the night(13kms from my home), staying at friend’s places at nights in hope of studying(watching movies instead), spilling conc.HNO3 on my fingers, the smell of benzoic acid(I hope the name’s right), fighting with ashwin for seats every morning, trying to avoid varun but not his food(hehe), the teachers’s day function, the drama, the ‘junk’ with anuradha(that was some solid entertainment in class), speaking to vinay and gang(the most enjoyable moments of the two years), writing sandesh’s record, borrowing lab coats for chem. labs, cannizzaro’s reactions(alcohol+ aldehyde->something), talking and walking textbooks in class(:)), mr.PM(cannot even begin to explain), comp labs...If you noticed, it was my second pu. And I don’t remember anything about studying at all. And I scored 98.67%. I think it shows what is more important in life, and I was right when I wrote it in my slam book. The unfinished record doesn’t matter, the unfinished slam book does.

Interior design is the exploration into materials, textures and colour. The basic framework remains the same. Somehow I don’t like it. Architecture is very, very different from this understanding- it is the creation, or the formation. It is not about decoration, but about psychology of space. My understanding of interior design, as of today, is limited to small spaces, mostly residences. In magazines like inside outside, what comes across about interior design is that it’s all about being creative with materials; how you can roll what, and stick where. It does not speak about why the sofa is as wide as it is, or why seating has been restricted to this area/shape; how the selected materials have been arrived at, or how tall the wardrobe is. The wardrobe is always of the same height; the sofa is always as wide as it has always been. Circulation patterns and the physical dimensions of the space are determined by its architecture. Interior design is more-so the matching of patterns. Sheesh. Some interior designer is going to kill me soon. The thing is, I want to understand, I want to appreciate it. Maybe I’m not looking in the right places. Hmm...

How important is one’s age for acquiring experience? Does experience inevitably go hand in hand with age? Especially in this time period, in a city like Bangalore. Does my dad know more about mistakes made in the teenage or do I? He has experience; he has been through it himself, and also seen dozens of others through it. He has had two decades to reflect upon it. I, on the other hand, have just about crossed it. Or so I believe. But I claim to know more about the attitude of teenagers today and thus their mistakes, than my father. Am I right? I wonder if I’m going to contradict myself once I have had two decades to reflect upon these years.

Why is it so difficult to be different? Why does almost everything I see around me belong to one category- ‘ordinary’? It wonders me- it should actually be the opposite, right? Isn’t it always difficult for everything to be same? Isn’t it difficult for 20 dancers to synchronise? It’s impossible for two people to think in the same exact way. Still there are few who are ‘different’. Why are multi millionaires so rare? Why is ‘doing-things-differently’ considered great? Why am I always looking for that something ‘different’? Everyone knows what being ‘different’ means, everyone wants to be different. ‘Alag’. Still no luck. What’s the point?