I have to draft three plates today. I’m still very cool. Wonder how. Maybe because it’s tangible work. Something measurable. Not like third week at design studio. It’s amusing, how I tend to calm down when I know exactly what is needed to be done, even though I might enjoy working on design more than building construction. Naveen was talking about some senior in college today- “She’s in final year and she still has such interest in bc that she actually drafts all her plates..”. What does ‘still’ mean? Why do people in general lose interest in drafting bc by the time they reach fourth year? Should they? Why is there always a difference between what should be done and what is happening? Is it universal? Do I ask too many questions?

I want to watch tv at 5. The time is five to five. What could I possibly write about in five minutes? Five minutes comes across as such a small period of time...there are a lot of things that can be done in one minute, let alone five. For example, typing a message. Or tying your shoe laces. Or searching my entire room for my pen drive (on a weekday morning, that is. It would take me an entire Sunday in peaceful circumstances). See, only three of five minutes up. I still have time. Hehe..my brain is blank. I don’t understand it when people say they go blank the moment someone asks them to say something about something specific. Like- “what’s your opinion on the third week of deliberations of the fifth round table conference?”---”er...”! Amazingly, I still have thirty seconds to go! Nothing else to do, so I’ll buzz off!

I like the word ‘random’. It’s so cool. So powerful and simple at the same time. It is the difference between a mugger and a clever chap. It’s ok if you don’t dig. Chill madi. I have a history with these kinds of phrases. Throughout school and college, these catch words have always been around as the language of that time...”nin tale kayi bajji”, “addjusht”, “halli guggu”, “fine, ok?!!”, “crap!”, “nin muthi!”, “too much ma!”, “ehao”, and many more. Wonder if we can keep track of time with respect to these phrases? What if it becomes something like a fashion trend, which repeats itself in due time? If we made calendars based on these catch words, we would be wrapping time around a circle...no end or beginning...quite like it already is, don’t u think?

I was watching ‘Chhoti si baat’ a few days back...such an innocent, warm movie. It reflects the state of our society at that point of time- the offices, the ways of life...i don’t think I can find a movie with such a simple heart now- now it’s all about the bikinis and the love making scenes. Even good movies like munnabhai are different from the old ones- the problems, the obstacles, the plots are different. Earlier problems would be the rich girl’s dad or poverty. Today they are about the corrupt government, infidelity, and the hero’s own wicked brother. It’s about murder, about arguments between a couple. I think the problems of today have climbed up the ladder of basic needs: they start after the fundamentals have been attained. Or have they? Are they reflecting the progress our country is achieveing? Why are sooraj barjatya’s movies outdated? Why is a robbery by blind men more of a plot than a bride getting burnt? Are we just trying to be creative and not repeat the same masala? Is that not affecting the mindset of the society? Or are we really changing? Will we ever get back that innocence? amol palekar. I think he’s the king of simplicity- his movies make me want to live back then, when people could be trusted, when independence was not the aim of one’s life.

Is it really a small world? There are lots of incidents that affirm the faith. There are also a lot of facts that do not let us believe. Really, some things are totally upto us. We cannot control occurances; but we can choose to expect them, or be surprised. Which is better? What is ‘better’?